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MELISSA
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WESTWOOD SECONDARY
1HARMONY;2HONOUR;3HZUSAMMEN
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WESTWOOD CHORUS
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Monday, July 31, 2006

BACK TO SCHOOL TODAY
first thing in the morning, saw tianhaw and tianluck, when i called tianhaw,tianluck turn behind, when i call tianluck, tianhaw turn behind, lol.
Next thing was to check SC duty, i am taking 1E and i kena pulling of national flag again(thrice!), if tomorrow change duty again, then i would not need to do it :) recess, im the toilet guarder! The duty was planned out weirdly, didn't know fernanders was the one who did it, i was like, "this person who made the duty list really dont know how to do it ah, how can the same SC take 4C and 4D at the same time after recess, and 3C and 3E too.."Others commented. Arif add on, "The duty list really sucks ah." It could have hurt his pride alot, nobody else suspect. I know his mood and temper changed alot of our comments. That's why i got a scolding. lols
Lessons were fine, surprisingly, i wasn't sleepy at all before recess. But Social studies make me sleepy, he just go on talking. Social studies test on wed,history test on wed, whoa.. Physics was fine, finally some noise, hannah and i went on talking and talking too. Chinese got back my paper, didn't did well at all :( must work harder. After school, all of us pondering whether to go to the Eng enrichment course or not. It's a pretty useless course, haven't really learnt anything through it yet except, "haaa,hAA,HAAA!" Sigh, its graded in SA as well, the final product, darn..We took our time to eat lunch and went to class, yes we were late.
After everything, I went home and went studying in the library, i must succeed my mission!
to him: remember to do 5 questions of every topic
(abit too bossy :X)
tomorrow is rev-up, running again!
hmmm,
hannah and i made a best friend today, zulfaidi!
because we each sponser him 30cents which made up 60cents so that he could buy an icecream that resembled the one he found the floor(the wrapper).
so, :D

And, i super interested with the NCC cheer, i find it very nice :D
Count by the, count by the, left foot down ah
1!
can't hear you ah
2!
say loudly ah
3!
that's better ah
All together now,
1,2,3,4
NCC, NCC all the way
we like it here, we like it here
We found ourselves a home
A home, a home sweet home !
*Stamp*

(this computer now is not good at all, urgh)
bye.

feel the SUNSHINE;
6:41 AM
******

Sunday, July 30, 2006

OH YEAH.
saw CONSTANCE ANG yesterday, a primary school friend whom i have not met for 3 years! and hannah first spotted her amongst the million people crowd, and she excitedly brought me to see her. You can call this fate :)
AND, we also saw don and jeffery. Rachel, hannah, gracia and i walked out of the toilet and saw 2 boys busting the balloon thing on the floor near the dustbin. The sound was super loud,(attracted our attention) to tell them to stop busting. In the end, they are like, "eh, melissa?" Then, woolah. spotted more friends! I tried helping hannah recalling thier names. And rachel was like."eh, jeffery, ni ji de wo mah." quite funny, haha!

feel the SUNSHINE;
5:01 AM
******

Yesterday, went for choir practice in the morning. Monfort guys came, the tenor and basses became stronger in terms of volume, the practice was great i hope. Charmz concert is just next friday, 230-10. Actually, ms chen did not allow us to go to ndp. I was like "darn. all the tidbits i just bought would be wasted." In the end ms fong finally allowed us :), but i can see her mood is very bad, maybe because of us wanting to go to ndp and cannot attend the last 30mins of choir practice. Well, thanks to one good samaritan who told her.
But nevermind, we could still go in the end. Went to the holding area and waited for a long time at the national stadium. Had lunch, not nice at all other than the icecream :D. Got our teeshirt, yellow,again? as yellowish as the adventure camp ones. Behind the teeshirt, was printed, "have you picked your own trash up yet?"Slowly, group by group went out for shift duties. When it was my turn, i had to pick FOR them, when i asked them to pick their own trash, all those singaporeans could say was, "this rubbish is not mine.." not yours also cannot pick it up? Then, why the hell we're there for if we got the mindset that this rubbish is not mine, all those rubbish out there are not ours. Hmmm, but it was fun though, heehe. The second time we went for duty, i grabbed 2 members from my group to follow me. I hold the plastic bag, and we picked together, but we have to say "thank you. Support and keep the environment free from rubbish!" People laughed. It was dumb, but people are interested to look at us, than the parade. HOWEVER, i was framed!! A few aunties gave me their filled gabage bag thinking that im really a trash collector, i asked them is they would still need to throw anymore rubbish later. They said they still got more plastic bags, so i took and throw it for THEM. Then is was hannah's duty. Those AUNTIES told her they cannot throw their rubbish in the plastic because I TOOK IT. its like, THEY TOLD ME THEY GOT MORE PLASTICS. Singaporeans!! After that, i've got no more duties, i took free stuffs from the motivators, didnt know i was not supposed to =X. I took balloons, then many others want, so i went back to take again. haha.Syafiq and Kintoh asked if i want to watch the parade, (of cse i want!!) so we pretend we're doing duty, sat at the last row, just on time to watch fireworks! wooolah, so beautiful :D. took pictures, promised shikin we would bring her along next time, but after the mass scolding. i don't think we could run about to play anymore. Student leaders from sector 1 all got scolding(did not lead by example-_-), darn, August 8, cannot watch the parade and play anymore!! Quite contented, took a picture with Paul Twohill. Im not really crazy over them but just, contented? lols. We all got scolding partially for chasing after the idols. Tell me, who wont be excited when they see famous people? I was eating, so i didnt chase after. Hannah and syidah created false alarmed, people thought its true. Haha!! After the whole parade, its WE, the "ECO-AMBASSADOR" time for action. Do what? PICK RUBBISH. We do not have gloves, tongs or anything. BARE HANDS. But i was glad, everyone working together. Also had some fun throwing and shooting bottles into the trash bags, stepping and busting the long balloon thing. So nice :)
After everything, we took the bus heading to jurong point. The bus was quiet except the few of us. We got scolded for being noisy, but they still laugh and joke alot despite that, lols, sorry to those people, i know they hate us alot, dont't show me black face when i'm trying to smile to you. SMILE, i mean SMILE, the chinese speaking lot.
Daphne and i walk hannah to her Floravale and then went home, thanks to her for accompany me. hehe
I was too tired that the moment i lie down on the bed, i fall asleep peacefully. :D
The computer in my room can finally be excessed to internet, thanks to dad. Are fathers really important in a family to handle mechanic affairs?

bye.

feel the SUNSHINE;
12:01 AM
******

Friday, July 28, 2006

Back from tuition,
Quite pissed. I shall ask rebecca if i got any questions next time. Not him! Called him 7 times, no reply. Even if he replied, i don't know he heard or not, or purposely turn away..>:|
Will do his homework later.
Told mum to wait for me below the block tomorrow after NDP.
Im scared :x.
Because there's too many casualties in my block already.
9TH floor, my level too..

feel the SUNSHINE;
6:48 AM
******

I might be thinking too much, but.. im probably replaced. nevermind :)
just back from choir, going to tuition later
really tiring today, but running can lose weight!!
but my stomach cannot take it, maybe i shouldn't eat before i run
lessons was ok, mr lee said hes not leaving so early, hinted us by saying around september but he also add on, september is close to end of year, so might as well stay. which means (yay!)
emath test, not well done. loads of careless mistakes, hate myself for that!!
chinese test next, a long and taxing paper.
Chem was in the MRL, so time really flies.
Next monday will be common test..
For choir, im glad that the conductor came, to tune our voices.
Tomorrow, Monfort sec male choir will come, quite a large group, 40 people. Westwood choir, we must sing even better than we usually do!
Conductor mentioned that the weakest section is soprano. Although its not very good being pin-pointed.(meaning i didn't do my job well) but i agree with him seriously.
Its difficult to make them even SMILE. Nevermind, i believe when they got the mood, they will sing :)
my throat got a lump, painful one. Argh...

I disagree to building a nuclear power plant, once accident happen, the whole of singapore will be gone case!
bye.

feel the SUNSHINE;
3:26 AM
******

Thursday, July 27, 2006

My body is aching. Stomach muscles hurts whenever i sneeze or laugh. lol
Today was a fine day(i think)
Mr Poh treated us Pizza(hooray!)
to celebrate:
1)our carnival, class booth earn 500 plus bucks (i expected more =X)
2)we were awarded the "wow" class in the adventure camp
As expected, Amath test was horrendously done (according to mrs melissa tan)
Adding to the horror, there was a SURPRISED physics test, but mr tan did helped us by writing the formulaes on the board.
Hmmm, after school, i went to do my emath test i've missed because of selling the carnival tickets. Talking about that, it reminds me of mr Amin(the joker), he left to Saudi Arabia. Glad to know him and had a dark secret :D
Emath test was tough, to me, Lina told me i drew wrongly (bite fingers), im deadmeat once more.
Wanted to go home but it was raining. After that, saw desmond. He got detention or rather, suspension because he slapped someone. Suspension can be aroused by this kind of situation? hmmm..
just finished my music CD cover

Today, many people keep recapping the cheers we learnt, lols
"everybody dance now!"
"uhh umm, goes the little green frog!"
"oh he was sad..oh he was sad..."
lol..
jared even asked if i want to join the its showtime cheer group for the next round. lols, bcse we've finally got more cheers to "showoff" finally!

sheikh pimples can form a heartshape. :O
bye

feel the SUNSHINE;
4:46 AM
******

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Finally back from sec 3 adventure camp. [2breakfast,2dinner,2lunch,2supper camp]
It was really fun and i would miss it alot. (other than the sleeping hut and food), this camp was totally awesome!
Day 1 was tiring and moodless,
didn't want to go to jalan batera at all, environmnet was fine, but changed alot since p5 camp, haha
3H girls settled down in hut 3 while the guys in hut 10(i think). Have to come up with a group cheer, ours goes:
dont mess with the best
cse the best dont mess
dont fool with the cool
cse the cool dont fool
dont mess(clap x2)
dont fool(clap x2)
cse we are the best
and you are the fools.
and also did a group flag.
Our first activity was the "MRT" game, seemed boring but its tough when we have to coordinate and let the marble keep rolling.
We had a "pass the pail" game, the first step to getting wet, the wettest would probably be hannah, kintoh purposely pour the pail of water on her,no wonder our pail was always empty!i was also wet!! dumb instructor willie, keep splashing water, but is not funny..
zaki was like shouting to mr poh "sir, i want to change my underwear.."
after the water game, we proceed with kayaking!
hannah and i had a hard time kayaking, the destination was very far, we're both girls somemore. But we had a great time because it was quite cooling and fun!! Finally, we got to bath! If im not wrong, it was dinner after that. Followed by cheer practice and the "kidnapping" game, for my group, kokkiong was kidnapped so we have to find him, but ganmin they all had already found him, so we did not need to waste time, we skipped all the station games because our instuctor asked if we wanna slack, went to guess for the key number and we finally could open and release him. Next thing was to carry him to chief denise, who dont get excited when they think they are about to finish the task! And, (yeah man), we got serious scolding by (yeah man), i was affected, dont know why but i really hate him during that time, nevermind abt that
then it was supper, and time to sleep. hell, im really irritated, i cannot sleep, first was the light, then the mosquitoes, and their irritating buzzing noise behind ur ears, and their bites, alot of the girls got mosquito bites. It was a horrendous night!
Next day morning, everyone was restless and tired, we did some messaging exercise to each other and try to be awake, breakfast time and we continued the day with high element activities. From below, it might be fun and not so scary, but the moment you take the first step to start climbing, you know there's no turning back and you just have to go on, no matter how scary,how fearful.. Everyone was scared when its their turn climbing. Some freaked out and couldn't continue midway, started crying, got confused and don't know how to get down..many many..BUT one thing i found admirable about this class was, they give encouragements, directions and try very much to help those that had trouble up there. This applies to every single one! You people are great :)
There was flying fox and (i dont know what), i chose to do the "going down the wall" thing. It was HIGH, the tower was HIGH up. The moment i reached the top, i totally regret. I was so afraid i lose control and all..but finally i did it and came down safely. We had lunch and continue with another high element activity. Perhaps the scariest among all? Only a few managed to tryout though, but they did manage to grab on the bar, wooo!
If im not wrong, we then had team building games, building the raft, i don't want to elaborate more. Just, the whole bonding process probably start from this game? Although 3H had 2 groups, we shared ideas and protected both our target boards well. Hooray for 3H,to me, we still win although we were disqualified..(at least we're not sore losers), i was called "stupid" although i could tie the clovehitch correctly, urgh, cant remember what we did next, practised our major group cheers and prepared for campfire night! Got our camp tshirt, i actually took 42, but it was super big, big enough to be a dress perhaps? So mr tan gave me a size 38. For the night's dinner, we had the loudest cheer ever, maybe becse everyone were all excited about the campfire.
Did another round of rehearsal just before campfire begin. Efforts did not go to waste, we won the loudest,most united and blahh major group cheer! woo~ what i cant believe most was, our class was darn enthusiatic,cheering for sheikh,nuqman,zaki and others from major group Bravo and some others as well!! woo! We did our performance, we already knew we would not win, but we won another even more meaningful prize, the most supportive,enthusiatic blahh, class. Surprised, we all were.(most of us dropped jaws) But yay! It something to be super happy about because we, 3H are not very united at the very beginning, staying with our own cliques only, but now, i understood more people and realised that the girls, are really fantastic, and the guys, they could really get along well. Yes, campfire was then over after prize presentation, which was almost the end of the camp already. I did thought that this would be a ultra boring camp, but now, i would miss it. Had a debrief by Za and Willie after supper, willie told us ghostly stories, scared us alot (plus its 7TH month). A few girls were scared but this also pulled we girls even closer when we whole group stay in the toilet to comfort one another. Seriously, i did believe what Willie said about the campsite was true. But the last night was rather peaceful to me, lesser mosquito bites :D. It might be peaceful to me, but maybe not peaceful to aini,ifah,zawani and hannah. However, its all over, we did area cleaning and said goodbye to ZA and (YEAHMAN), particularly a sign that made us, us :)
thank you ZARAH and WILLIE
thanks for every encouragement you guys gave to us although we didn win sometimes.
thanks for the riddles
thanks for everything..
thank you mr poh for taking pictures, its memories yah??
i shall put them here when i get them

after everything, we went to long john silver to grab the angelic food that we've been craving for for 2 days. yum yum~ Sorry ganmin, if i had offend you

off to sleep now!
:)

feel the SUNSHINE;
11:00 PM
******

Friday, July 21, 2006

after lessons today was preparations for carnival.
Went for folkdancing practice, and then SC briefing.
i'm like a retard, carrying pots of flowers up and down,
mr goh was so choosy, "this one very pretty but too big lah, change!" change again.
One gust of wind, and "tatt!" the flower fall. Like mixed veggies.
Here comes the folkdancing thing. We danced on the stage twice. I went to rest after that. Chatted with rachel,rebecca,rila around the round table. rachel's got a new handshake :D
Went to decorate the 3H stall a little. Do support us! haha.. the tentage is quite cramp, a bit stuffy? The idols rehearsal started and woo, we went wild screaming and cheering for our idols! rebecca and i stand up for hafiz, he is very sweet, really, to sing for love. aww~
everything ended late, i was a bright shining lamppost, guiding a couple back home from behind.
I LOVE god because hes willing to give me tickets to have fun. i think. :D
(JIANYANG, kanasai, royston is a FRIEND)

feel the SUNSHINE;
7:08 AM
******

Thursday, July 20, 2006

today was a looong day.
I believe everyone were hoping that the clock tick faster.
Recess, then lunch break, then CME presentation. Finally, after school!
I did not regret going to the shopping with the people!
hannah,zawani,rebecca,rachel,aini,ifah,nuqman,zaki,asyraff and kokkiong
i had fun, and loads of laughter. rachel is really a joker. lols
bought alot of stuffs for the carnival, made alot of noise on the mrt train, came home later than expected.
umm, yesterday had promoting excercise for the whole morning, went xingnan, sales was great! mascot, still very poor thing. this time, jared's bear tail came off, pulled by a violent kid, haha!
missed lessons, again. Came back just on time for punishments to sing national anthem for the sec3s. I wanted to take my emath test after that but i couldn't find ms tan, so went for bamboo dance in the IT resource room. Feeling bored, we went to the ava room to watch rehearsal of the superband,idol,supergroove contest without shoes. Hannah and zawani were stead, so arif and i become stead. so that shuhui and sufian can, you know.. but we all broke up after that. Went home late again..
Carnival is coming this Saturday.
Venue:WESTWOOD SEC
Time:9-3PM
Stall to go to: Ouch, my balls!
Programmes to tune to: westwood idol,superband,supergroove
Amount of money in hand: at least 10 dollars (things are super expensive)
HOPE: monday is no holiday for the rest of the school
because sec3s gotta go to adventure camp from monday-wednesday. the start of 7TH month as well.
tomorrow's rehearsal, will probably be a busy day

BYE.

feel the SUNSHINE;
7:01 AM
******

Monday, July 17, 2006

SATURDAY NIGHT
went hospital, for visiting. lol
but i was still feeling awful, vomit, eeew
aunties and uncles know abt what happened to me. and, i was dragged to another doctor. its the 6th time. this time its a chinese doctor. shes quite powerful in a way. she just press for my pulse she could kind of read me? quite cool huh? and yes, more medicines! i hate medicines. really sick of medicines. white ones, black ones. urgh..
my dad went mad, drove us around geylang t oeat. food after food. and those food after food, i cannot really eat them..
SUNDAY
went for NDP, yes, the rubbish collecting thing. umm, i was grouped to be with sec 2B, and they are far better than the 4 boys, in another class. really pissed with them. totally childish. shaun,lousie,rebecca,rachel and i were pissed, they really dont have the positive attitude of what they are suppose to be.
finally can go home, we alighted at jurong point. zawani,syidah,hannah,arif and i went to eat. i gotta rush back for a wedding dinner..it may seem nice but not nice when u cannot enjoy the food well. Got home and i only got 10 mins to prepare, thanks to my kiasu mum. i was damn angry. Whats the point reaching there so early when everyone else is not even there yet and we have to wait like 1 hour? finally, food! i eat and vomit eat and vomit. maybe the stomach cannot take it.. My cousins still treat me like a child. humph. 15 is a age when u're stuck right in the middle, you cannot play along with the kids, neither could u talk about political stuff with your older cousins :(, i just sit there like some lady. urgh. but my uncle went drunk or something. he started singing karaoke. WAHH. its damn funny, but also ear-piercing. Affect people's appetite perhaps? But it was sure a fun thing, laughing. NEXT, my auntie, this is worst. i really cannot tolerate.but it was more funny. all out of tune. haha, but at least she got the courage? my older cousin and his girlfriend sang duet well. woo~ okay, all my cousin could say to me was "melissa..(hoping it was something good, prefebly a praise :D) you never lose weight ah? " wth, i know im fat..
TODAY,
school was fine. After school, if theres never this english enrichment course, and we can all go home like everybody else did at 1.45 bcse of the Olevel oral, perhaps, there would be less trouble and problems?
IM SO LUCKY. SO SURPRISED. URGH. but at least its over when adventure camps comes? and i would not need to bring so much toilet roll. HAHA

relationships,
is about giving in
is about passion
is telling each other lots secrets
is about crying
is about talking and laughing
is about believing
is telling the other party they are perfect
is not meeting everyday
is not avoiding
is about compatiblility
what is it about?
this goes to my this friend out there, crying too much is not so good either..

sheikh like magdelina..
bye..

feel the SUNSHINE;
5:32 AM
******

Saturday, July 15, 2006

today woke up at 7, wanted to go to school and watch the Phattzions finals. I told them i would be there. Hannah,Syidah and Zawani was there. However, bad thing, my stomach hurts like hell..since yesterday night actually. I couldn't sleep well too...
I wonder did the medicine help at all..?
anyway, when the girls came back, i found out from them that Phattzions lost to Traxxions or something, the sec4 NT team..
yes, they are really disappointed..from what i know, sheikh,kokkiong,asraff and all..
BUT they are still the best forever!
There were unfairness and all in the game, but nothing could be done.
Nevertheless, Phattzions will go far and well. They're really great, if not why were there so many people on field, outside field, or even at the HDB block cheering for them? :)
Tomorrow, sec2s and sec3s NYAA award participants will be going to be Eco-ambassador. LOL, what a name. In simple meaning, we're gonna pick rubbish and save the surrounding! -_- its not a fun thing to do, its a dirty thing to do. Imagine people watching NDP and these irritating pest(us) goes around promoting a clean and green environment. HAHA, we WILL BE irritating. And my cousin is having a small wedding dinner tomorrow. I 've got to rush there myself after the picking rubbish thing. urgh.

feel the SUNSHINE;
1:16 AM
******

Friday, July 14, 2006

did not go to school today
went to meet hannah to pass her the carnival tickets for mr poh in the morning and prepare to go to the hospital. i did not got lost, *followed the crowd*
before i could step in clinic A, seeing so many toys and playground from outside, i was like. man, they sent me to the children section. which means im still a kiddy kid.. everybody inside were mum or dad with babies or young children, except me. So much family love in there, excluding me of cse. haha. they asked for my birthcertificate and they typed in the wrong info, they typed my birthdate as my mum's. so the doctor named dr marion aw was wondering why there's any kid that was born in year 1962. hmm, quite funny though, haha
she asked me alot of ques, took height and weight (dont know what for) she drew me my family tree, and drew my stomach.. its the stomach acid going up to my oesophagus(if this is how i spell it) she gave me medicine and wanted me to go back three weeks later. the medicines are to see if my condition will improve, haha, if not i would really have to go for somethings to check inside. and that would be bad
the trainee doctors were umm, scary. they stand there and kept nodding their head while im saying whats happening to me.i dont dare to speak up also. the bills are like wow! 63 dollars for consultation. 10 dollars for medicine. hell.. which means 3 weeks later another 70 dollars will be spent. after that, dad sent me home. Slept because my stomach hurts and im really tired after visiting the doctor. Went to eat. puked again, ahh.. nvm. 3 weeks!!
its so hard to play pool..when will i ever learn well..

feel the SUNSHINE;
1:57 AM
******

Thursday, July 13, 2006

WHAT? THE APPOINTMENT IS SO FAST, AND EARLY
not sure if i would still go to school, its at 10am
mum cannot bring me there
i hope dad can..i would go myself first and wait for him to come, if he would**
how to go to NUH by the way?
ummm,
thanks rebecca, rachel, zawani and hannah for accompanying me to the clinic just now, haha
my stomach hurts more than ever, it might not be serious but it really hurts :(
i might be lost tomorrow, ahh~
got back physics test today.
expected the results, quite discouraging though, i doubt i got the ability to continue pure physics next year, i gotta try really hard.. yah

feel the SUNSHINE;
3:57 AM
******

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

the clinic closed just when i reached there. wasted trip
have to go again tomorrow,
im still getting scoldings after scoldings from mum
whats wrong!

feel the SUNSHINE;
6:29 AM
******

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

okay, i went to the clinic after a long day of school. and i mean it, long, not shorter even eng course was cancelled. pe was fine, enjoyed floor ball, being the goalkeeper, shouting goal here and there!
physics test was horrendous.. mr leow is so.. sigh* he didnt even scold me for sleeping in his class, which im looking forward for him to..
today eng class was boring at the beginning, but once ms chen started talking abt how many more days to EOY, it made us worried alot. then we talked about olevel, all refreshed. lol, i would choose a school with clean toilets, i must.. lol
okay, back to the clinic thing, nelson went with ganmin and i.. the back gate was flooded and my shoes were super wet and soggy, yeeek. doctor refered me to the hospital, okay. i was given a choice. private "stomach" clinics or hospital, hospital would be cheaper! it was expensive and it made me very guilty, im nothing to him, it really cost him alot! went home and called rebecca and rachel, they came over and we went tuition together. huimin said i changed after i got sickly, she said i smiled lesser. hmm.. i will smile more! found this keychain hang on my door. scared me =Xi thought it was from who, so mysterious. now i know, from nelson han!! thanks alot :) tuition was fun! its like fighting with words in the class, haha
and, my mum seem so "i dont care lah, im not free.." she tell my friend to go to the hospital with me.. tsk.

feel the SUNSHINE;
6:59 AM
******

Monday, July 10, 2006

im vomitting and vomitting, vomitting doesn't seem like a painful matter to me anymore, and i wont cry anymore
and toilet, seemed like my third home, toilet cubicle to be exact.
i will go and see a doctor, someday.. mum and dad wont help me either, so..too bad. haha.
its the bitter thing i hate, although i do like bitter gourd alot! but, that bitter liquid i puked, sucks.
my stomach hurts too.. hell-
actually i was so happy today to be dismissed, the earliest day of the week. 2.55!
BUT, here comes this debate course that we have to attend. and TOMORROW, there's this creative writing course.straight after sch which is 4.05-5.45pm
then rush home to prepare for tuition after that
everyday will be like so tiring
the social studies teacher's like so "gay"
went to eat with the maomaos plus simin after the course, i just love hanging out with maomaos, lots of laughter, with rebecca and rachel too..:)
OH YAH
and this chikohpek, give that dumb smile but its really funny. he first smiled at zawani which kinda freak her out, lol..
den they planned to smile the same way back to him, before i could even try. he smiled at me that way too..i was like omg
laughing like mad..
lastly,
i really need help with physics.. sigh

feel the SUNSHINE;
3:16 AM
******

Sunday, July 09, 2006

the love between mum and dad was still there afterall
but the love between dad and i have long gone
and
the love between mum and i, perhaps will be gone soon as well..

weiyang kept complaining he've got depression
jianyang also said he need councelling..
what is really depression
and when is the time you really need councelling?

i studied and im happy i did
but i still dont understand physics
i need to look for mr tan on monday or i wlil not be able to answer a single question for tuesday's test..
CME PROJECT (rushing)
CHOIR PROJECT (rushing)
arhhh~

weiyang like karin
bye..

feel the SUNSHINE;
12:27 AM
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Friday, July 07, 2006

i will know my priorities
i must know..
i wont change,
i must not..
i am always myself
i must always be myself..

(thnks alot, zawani:))

feel the SUNSHINE;
11:30 PM
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Thursday, July 06, 2006

SAVE THE TREES;
REUSE PAPERS;
FIGHT FOR THE BARK RIGHTS;
tree life saving, we've all got a part to play
okay, lame
yesterday was a full study day. but we were dismissed early bcse there was no CME (hurray)
however, there was sc meeting(sigh), so i tried and slept in class from 3+ to 4, meeting, quite serious stuffs? down for carnival duty..and we're dancing folk dance one again! lol..
these few days = really super tiring..
gotta finish up with choir kl tour project later.. wow

feel the SUNSHINE;
10:37 PM
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006

it seems like i got to find a doctor soon..its acting up again..this time..puke until my liver hurts, whoa..
but my mum will be pissed whenever i talk abt my stomach..so i shall just save up some money and go nxt month..haha..
dont know what else to blog today
chemistry test tomorrow,amath paper is very difficult! and cme project is probably gone case, will one day be enough to do? or..did any group even finished it??

feel the SUNSHINE;
4:27 AM
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006

its really confusing..i really believe you and this other person came along and change the way i think, so easily..
you tell me to believe what i choose to believe, and yes! i trust you and only you..and i hope you would trust that i trust you, bcse i really regard you as a good friend!
today was a long day..jeremy came and help me get sound in my com again! yay..
tuition was fine,3 debaters in action!
but it seems like many things is happening now..i hate to be middle person
i think im a bad human being..
and you always HAVE to change to what others EXPECT you to be
what if different people wants to be differently..
whats more to life..

feel the SUNSHINE;
5:58 AM
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Monday, July 03, 2006

today, i didn join the maomao to study..sad..
i was at home all day long, rachel,faith,aidelyn came and do the kl project..den started singing karaoke, rachel keep singing happily..lols..
they left and i could finally start on my chemistry..didnt understand alot of stuffs..gotta go and clarify soon..
amamda called me suddenly..kind of surprise? wanted to buy sundae for lunch..and she wanted me to accompany her to buy stationaries..so i did accompany her..since my sis was at home to take care of ivan..
we've got alot of things to talk about after not contacting for 1 yr or so..and yes, shes tall, pretty, and slim..she would always ask if anyone bullied me, hmmm..haha
we could talk about anything,which is great though..then i went home and continue with chemistry..its hard to understand..especially when its me..

feel the SUNSHINE;
6:27 AM
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Sunday, July 02, 2006

YESTERDAY
was called up early in the morning by mum, to watch superman with her at plaza singapore..as usual..i guide her to take the wrong side, luckily my sis knows the way..
the first part of the show..i slept bcse i was really tired..but den i woke and watched..its quite nice but not very very nice..after the movie, i got to rush back to my primary school to meet the friends and attend xingnan's 75th anniversary some alumni opening..the people there..ganmin,kassandra(she've grown so much prettier!),theresa(always very pretty),pengyang,eshton,hiongyong,anson,boonhean(still never talk much),limzhu,gary..definitely great to see all of you again..but not great to see all of you grown taller den me..so much taller..but im still sorry to make u all wait so long..i lost my way at dhoby ghaut..i admit i duno the way..i still enjoy talking to eshton, but i noe my english is bad!and the best was when we can finally eat..maybe only i like it..? lol, the lion dance was really deafening
walked passed the playground i used to play, i realised im really scared of going up and down the seesaw, eshton gave me a shock of my life..
but i do miss them..alot did not come, cse of SYF too..
TODAY
called up in the morning again, went to IMM with parents to home necessities..went back in the late afternoon..then went to make spectacles with nelson..he will look like a nerd soon. lols.. ate dinner..and yah..go home..
tomro gotta start on projects already..
and my mum will start singing karaoke everyday now..woww..

feel the SUNSHINE;
7:37 AM
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